6.07.2010

Loneliness in a Crowd

A few years ago, I lost a few really close friends. For whatever reason, I have yet to find a replacement. Perhaps I am guarded in the initiation of new relationships. Perhaps it is my "ferocious fear of abandonment". Or maybe I just don't have enough room in my heart to let new people in. Who knows?

I crave intelligent conversation. I miss the passion and emotion of being involved in activities of substance. I still want to change the world, but I need a few revolutionary souls to join the insurrection.

I told you I would be "back with a vengeance."
I'm limping my way toward the light at the end of the tunnel.

2 comments:

Liz Nyenhuis said...

Know that you are not alone in your quest for a "real" friend. I, too, have struggled in making new friends when I lost my two best friends 4 years ago (yup, it's been that long). Know that I think of you guys often and pray that NC is going well for you!

Jen Wags said...

excited to see and hear about the day... Can only imagine what God will do.